Where Are You Looking?


That’s how I felt last week. To be honest, I’ve felt that way numerous days since the new year began. For someone who doesn’t have an identic mind (like Sheldon Cooper on TBBT), I’ve been doing a significantly accurate job of remembering every problem and concern in my mind. Frankly, it has consumed me.

It all boils down to a conglomeration of worry about friends and family, relationships, finances, and fear of the unknown. I’ve been researching on Google and speaking with other people in similar circumstances. Wrapping my head around it has been nearly impossible.

I’m back in the ninth grade, standing at the chalkboard during Algebra 1, stuck in an equation. My stomach hurts. I’m having performance anxiety. The fear of failure is pervasive. Every time I try to solve, it is clear that I am just not equipped to do so. Then Mrs. Randleman gently takes the chalk from my hand, looks me in the eye and smiles. AT THAT MOMENT, I know that she KNOWS the answer and is going to help me find the answer. And she does.

God is waiting for me to “turn over the chalk.”

“I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With Him at my right hand, I will never be shaken.” Psalm 16:8


I’ve trusted in myself and forgotten to trust in the One who is always trustworthy. I’ve convinced myself that I’m smart enough to figure these things out and ignored the One who is Omnipotent. I’ve chosen to stomp through the high grass, hacking away at the underbrush, and crawling through uncharted territory, even though God can make a way when there seems to be no way (Philippians 2:13-14).

If you’re there with me in that “I can do it myself” mentality, let me ask you to just lay the burden down. You don’t even realize how heavy it is. If it helps, you can cry all the frustration out. I did, and when that was over, I cried out to God and confessed my sin to Him.

Don’t be surprised if you get tempted to pick it all up and try it your way again. That’s the urging of the devil. He will come to you in your weakest moments and say that you can handle this all on your own. Remember that the devil is a liar and the father of all lies. (John 8:44).

I am praying the promises of Psalm 121 and claiming them. For everyone who has lost sight of the Source of our strength, I’m praying for you and I ask that you pray for me.

Psalm 121:
1 I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.

2 My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth.

3 He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber.

4 Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The Lord is thy keeper: the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand.

6 The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night.

7 The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.

8 The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.



10 thoughts on “Where Are You Looking?

  1. Thanks for this story Sandy and the Bible verses that you put in the story Yes it’s tough to turn over the chalk to God. It’s best for us when we do with any situation otherwise we will be ready for Bonkersville

  2. Sandy,
    We often hear, “Turn it over to God.” I know “it” refers to our worries/problems, but substituting chalk for the word “it” is a great concrete, visual image to help us remember and relate. I enjoyed your post and I’m glad you’re handling things better for now. God loves you.

  3. I recently read your post about carb cycling, but I’m a bit confused. I didnt read the section that said to only do it for 3 weeks and I have now done it for 2 months. What do I do now?

    1. Every fourth week, you’re supposed to eat regular to high carb. Then go back to the 3 weeks of regulating your high/low carb days. This gives your body a “shock” (for lack of a better word) and keeps you from reaching a plateau.

      1. but now that i’ve done it for two months, what should I do? I’ve already plateaued, I dont loose anymore weight but I dont gain any either

      2. If you’re at goal, then you alternate high carb/low carb days to maintain. In other words, every other day. I really urge you to buy the Chris Powell book (or check it out from a library) because it gives you more in depth maintenance advice. I am not at maintenance yet, so I can’t give you a truly personal perspective. There are also lots of informational websites that have carb cycling tips. The great thing about carb cycling is it’s hard to do it wrong. You can do whatever works for you. Congratulations for reaching goal.

  4. We got the book here at home so I will be sure to read it. Not at my goal yet sadly, still 10-15kg to go but its within arms reach I feel like.

  5. Sandy: Thank you for posting your blog site on our First 5 App. I love and appreciate also, your illustration of the “chalk”.

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